Unbearable Pain: A Personal Struggle With the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches
It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, like lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.
The headaches returned frequently that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches typically begin with intense pain around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Attacks usually begin with sudden, severe pain around one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.
What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.
Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.
Ancient medical texts suggest unusual remedies for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.
It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.
The disorder were only officially recognised by international headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in treating the disorder note this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.
Despite such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.
A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.
Official guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known people.
But leading neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.
The official guidance need updating to reflect a